truth is, you're the only one.

i am sick.
god.
my headaches gone. and i don't feel so sick
and my legs are SOO ACHING!!! like omgg i can't walk down the stairsss.
gahhh, it hurts

and i have to go to school tomorrow because i can't miss school, and i'm away on tuesday, and school photos tomorrow!

sooo i have been in bed a lot, matt stayed over on friday night
and we just watched movies and read on saturday and i slept alot
then i went to bed at like 7!
but i actually got some sleep, but i woke up a few times.

when those days slip slowly by

they're looking for a hero.

in icreate at the moment
i still haven't decided what memory i am writing about for english.
i think i will use the trigger of faye by skylar blue.
it's a song, and it reminds me of the time i got lost in brighton and ended up walking for over an hour, and got completely lost
completely completely.
and matt had to come pick me up but i threw a drama queen tantrum about it and was all like no i don't want to go because i thought everyone would laugh at me.
but they didn't anyways.

ehh.
it's athletics day today, lol woot
of course i'm not doing anything in it
i just went to the bathroom and there was a bunch of juniors straightening their hair and putting makeup on and stuff.
it made me lol.

i keep playing the sims but the computer keeps blacking out and i keep losing everything.
it's so annoying.
and im just getting sick of playing. because i keep losing everything.
raa, but i really enjoy making the houses.
it's fun.
i wish we could go on bebo at school.


anyways lots of drama went down the other night but to be completely honest it was all justified.
and if she is going to start drama about it and get everybody involved then go ahead because i really couldn't give a shit.
she really has nothing to support herself. because everything i said was true...
and people i have talked to about it agree with me.

and it was seriously against the unwritten laws of friendship.
every girl and boy knows that.
maybe she just doesn't.

and then a bitchy thing was written on her bebo page about a person who had nothing to do with it. so tbh get your facts straight stop accusing falsely and get a grip.

honestly.
and i know it was all me! nobody else said anything i said it all, i did it myself. so stop telling everyone it was other people as well and getting people to be all like ehhh that was mean.
it wasn't mean, it was completely called for.
fully do not give a fuck. to be completely honest. i really really don't.
it's weird because i thought i'd care that they would read this, but i actually don't.

they need to understand.
stop being so manipulative, because some people won't stand for it and some people see what you are doing.


on a lighter note, i have ham and cheese sandwiches for lunch today!!
YUSSSS
but i'm really fat atm, so i need to exercise atm.
and eat alot less and eat better hahaha


and now you wish that you meant something

at schoool, again.

well my birthday was great, i got loads of food and shower stuff and moneyyy.
and matt took me out to dinner.

aww, yeah it was really cute.
and justtt. yeah greattt! (:
then i stayed there and the next day we just chilled.
and jarrod came over to see bekah as well which was lol because me and amtt were in his room on the computer and bekah and jarrod were in her room (which is next door) and they had the door closed, which isn't really allowd.
and all me and matt could hear was giggling and stuff and then someone got up and went 'to the bathroom'
me and matt were pissing ourselves with laughter, because they were obviously 'getting up to something' if you KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
and both of matts parents were downstairs and me and matt were like next door and were just like seriouslyyy, desperateeeee much!

and i read matts kiddy books and his cotswold sample books and they were sooooo cute.

raa, i have school photos on monday.
and we have to take our jerseys, but i don't like jerseys.
like i have one and everything but i just hate wearing them, but i don't want to be the odd one out not wearing it. but argghh i hate them and i don't want photos taken in it.

so drama drama.
um yeah and i am addicted to sims, like seriously addicted!!!!!!!!!!


yeah well i'm kinda hungry.
i could make you spaghetti, it's like my specialty..
yayyyyyyyyyy....

dead and gone.

well i was sick today, like uber owwy sick sick.
so i had the morning off.
and i went back for icreate which was a waste of time.

and my icreate trip was boring, and it was so pointless and i still have to go out and take photos.
because when we got back they tell us we need like 24 photos, and i'm like what you only told us to take like 10 per artist module!! and you need 8 decent photos from each artist, it's fucked up!!

that's just annoying, like seriously.
they could've given us the task sheet BEFORE WE LEFT.
fucking bloody frigggin' 'ell.

so i missed a day of school and it was all a wastee of time, a complete huge fat waste of time.
and missing school is bad with like ncea and stuff.

i saw your picture and i really wanna meet you
but i'm afraid to say i'm too shy too shy.

it's always going to come right back to this.

omg, valentines day was so sweeeettt !
matt came around and gave me a bunch of flowers he had made himself and wrapped in cellophane and with a bow and everything. then we just hung around here and watched tv.
then he went to jaydens birthday party.

little boy #1: do you have to get married?
little boy #2: nahhh
little boy #3: yeah because then you can tell your wife to do the dishes..

fucking l0lz
then i stayed at matts and we stayed up till 11:30 watching greys anatomy and uchoose top 40 love songs, and matt kept singing them to me and i kept falling asleep and then he'd nudge me and go you asleep and then i'd wake up again ahah lol.
then today i got up pretty early and watched tv and drank coffe with his mum.
e! channel is great... lullllllll. we just bitched about our favourite celebrities. then we did reading.
then matt tried to make me do weightsss and i was like nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu wayyy. so his mum made lemon muffins and they were SOOOOOO YUMMMMM.
and then we just read books for agessss.
then matt had touch, which was realllyy bnoring and they had training FOR AGES then we went back to matts then i helped matt clean the preschool he cleans. i do the sweeping and mopping (: it's fun.
but i always mop myself into corners and matt has to carry me out when i'm not wearing shoes lol.
and yeahhh, then we went back to matts AGAIN and watched cooking showsss and then we found out his dad was coming home with lots of mates and they wereeee..."trashed" so his mum advised us to get out while we could lollls. so matt dropped me home...
C: all in alll great great great weekenddd. (:

you know i always got your back.

are you macleans showing?

watching chronicles of narnia.
school is boring.
classics is boring.


it's all boringggggg, and i'm justtt like ohmawgawd schoooooolllll. nuuuuuuuuu

right this way.

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
2) Guys are more emotional then you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they arent with you.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile ( :
4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what? Uh. Never mind," would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!
9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with you.
11) If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is really thinking about something.
12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
13) When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me.
14) If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know somethings up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

17) A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day
18) No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

19) NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE! Just because ONE is RUDE doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

20) When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to talk to you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible
21) Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life
Everything said in this bulletin is TRUE.

britannia high r00lz

but it's kinda creepy sometimes.

kinda sick of alice pretending to be somebody she's not.
and the change started over the last month and a bit.

so over it.

so pretentious.

like an obsession.

as you're moving closer.

sighhhhhhhhhhh, matts at quiztime right now.
b'cos he's at touch camp.

and i went for a run and did a whole extra lap and i was like oww bad stitchh ow my ankle but i did it HUZZAH
and when we watered the plants there was a cat over there and alice was like omg it's sooo cute do you think it has a home and i was like of course it has a homee.. but she was pretty convinced it didn't.. it was cute though and we patted it and alice went omgg you are soo cuteee! like 5 times to the cat.. just between you and me.. i don't think the cat understand. but whatcha gunna do.

i'm tired, tara's was pretty disaster. i felt bad.
ended up sleeping at madi's.
i'm justt tired tbh, i might go to bed now actually b'cos i am tired. obv.

eww double chin -prods chinS
god i'm bored.. and tired and BORED and TIRED

alice took a whole bunch of photos with glasses on and stuff and she looked cute but i just feel like she's not portraying who she really is. like that's not who she is, and when she puts that online or something she's putting somebody onto her page representing somebody else that isn't her.
and i just mmmm.....

oh weeelllzzzzz, -yawn
nightyyy night fellow bloggers.

baby get shaky after school.

tara's tonight.


hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, that's really all lolss.
nothing that new.
i got a crappy timetable.
but at least i got mr stewart for biology
i got mr tapp for mathsss.. ewwww.

butt ah well.
and i got mrs welch for classics, like god.










SIGH

i close my eyes and the flashback starts.

i'm wishing my life away.

OMFG!
the movie i just watched was so frustrating.

it's just like.. she leaves her husband because he cheats on her
and then they just get back together anyways!!!
and the attractive guy gets with a transvestie.


like wtffff, give us some woman power here.

wumpwumpwumpwummppp

tonight on channel 2 was me and matts movie we watched on our first date.
and he actually remembered and texted me and said what's on channel two, and i didn't know because i was on the computer.
and he said it was our movie.
how cute, even though it's not a very good movie
talledega nights hha, (Y)
i'm hungryyy


*eats hand*

i have fucking school tomorrow, like fucking hell
like.... ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
alice is in a real shit class so dad was like raging.
and me and dad kept raging at each other and just err.
lol.

oh welllssssssss.
FUCKING SCHOOOL

i wish holidays went forever..and ever and ever

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you.

carve out your name, do you remember that?

alice's first day of school!!
ohmagawd.

i had to get up at 6:30am!!!
because she got up sooooooooo early and started getting ready so i was just like..

groannn -gets out of bed
it's 7:10am now.
god, and it's pouring with rain. eww i hate rain.
and my hairs wettt ewwwww and won't dry EEWWWWWWWWW
-headbangs
so we have to drive, but i'm just like i CBF going with mum or dad
i have my bloody restricted let me go alone already!! LET ME GO ALONE ALREADY
it's like a ten minute drive alone.
GOD.
and i go the backway anyway.

ehhhh, somebody has to make alice lunch.
awwwwwww, she has big school noww.
-sniffle

it's like the prey playing games with the hunter
nowhere to run boy time to surrender.

watch me as i descend.

OMG EVERYBODY GO TO THE SUMMER THEATRE IN THE GARDENSS KTHNXBAI!

it's really funny, the history of film or something.
they are funny guys. it's on till 15th of feb..at 7pm. seriously, you won't regret going. lots of lols.
it's the same guys as last year if anyone went, and they were just as funny last year.
and the jokes are modern enough for us youngun's to get.

and i wanna grow up to be an iceberg.
srsly....

i finally got a school bag, and i love it just as i knew i would.
it's beautiful.

sniffle.

run don't walk
the sky is falling.

and just relax.

alice better fucking hurry up and DRY HER HAIR
because i'm tireed of waiting.
raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
and i can't remember where i put my phone..

hmm lols.

i got my exam papers back today, holy shit i fail at maths.
like hahaha, like people can laugh at me i fail so bad lolss.
i only just scraped an acheived in each page, and i failed algebraa
fuckingg lol.
maybe i won't be able to do mathss, eek.
and i did so well in chemistry!! like ohmygod!!


srsly.
and alice has school tomorrow so we're going schoolbag shoppingg YEAHBOI.
i've found the one i want i think.. but she hasn't.
ra, should be fun
oh dammit now we just realised we don't have enough money and the parentals aren't home rofl.
shit.


i bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me.
there's a mark you leave like a love heart carved on a tree.

i wanna talk back, and get yelled at.

i need a school bag, desperately
school starts on monday and i still have no school bag, so i have nothing to carry my stuff to school in!!
eeek, school doesn't sound too fun.
lols i have to take alice to school for her orientation thing.
like her motherr, rofl.
should be interesting.

but i still need a school bagg... anyone know where to get good ones?

kiss me like you mean it.

you know you love me.

just got back from driving out to southshore to pick my drunk faazzerrrr up looool.
it was funny, he was telling me he'd had a baby once.
and i was just like um dad, that was me !

it was kinda scary driving all the way out there in the dark, it was just like eep.
but i made it, i just parked TERRIBLY.

today went into town alone lolss, and printed off some photoss.
then saww alice, callan and nathan.
and we mega loled, well me and callan diddd.
and this guy came and tackled nathan and this old man was just like *mutters* "get off the street" and then i laughed harder, and then i saw this dorky little outfit in the window and i LOLED real hard and showed callan and we were like clutching the tree loling.
and then i saw liam, and we chatted for a whileee, and alice and co were just like *stands back awkwardly*
then we got subway NOMNOMNOM
then went to mcdonaldssss and made fun of nathans school for doing haka, and the other schools for high pregnancy ratess and shizzzzz.
and an asian tripped up the stairss lols.
and we waved at tourist busess!

was fun.
and i had a nice ice cream.
i am hungry 24/7 atm.
and i eat too much -scowl.