where is my tissue box?!

When you’re being kissed, do you like it when they hold your face?
yes, i do.

Did you sleep alone last night?
yes, i did on my lounge lol

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
alice or mum

Last person that texted you?
philip!

Has anyone ever sang to you?
yes many people

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you didn’t do?
most possibly/probably

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
nuppp

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
nah i have no clue

Do you and your last ex hate each other?
we're getting back on to the track of friendship

Are you happy with the way things are going?
idk, hard to tell

Ever given your ALL to someone who walked away?
yes i have, and it fucking sucked

Are you one of those people who are always cold?
yes, my hands

Ever felt like you’re not good enough?
most of the time yes

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
yes

Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
many

Last thing that made you cry?
life probably

How was your weekend?
it was good actually, got some good sleep last night

If someone is interested in you right now, would you like them to tell you?
if they want to

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
no they are not

Are your parents divorced?
nope

Are you in a relationship?
no.

Do you get up at least an hour early to get ready each day?
fuck no

Do you sit down & eat dinner with your family every night?
most nights.

Would you rather not eat or not sleep?
not sleep, eating is too good

If you won a million dollars how would you spend it?
house or renting something..get off my home. or a car.

What do you normally drink in the morning?
nothing.

What was the last card game you played?
crazy 8's

Look at your fingernails, do they need to be cut?
nah i bite them

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
sooo soo many times.

Are you listening to music right now?
paramore

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
warm def

Do you like to cuddle?
always

Are you keeping a secret right now?
yep

Do you like where you live?
i wanna move, but my house is nice and nice area

Have you learned any lessons in life?
aha yes,

Is there a person of the opposite sex that knows everything about you?
yah huh

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
todayyy

Are you a jealous person?
idk, it really depends.

Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
yes

Will you kiss someone within the next week or two?
yup


Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
alone time is good atm

Name what you did yesterday?
rugby, pizza, sleeping


When was the last time someone told you that they only want you?
a week ago?

When’s the next time you’ll see your closest friend?
idk.

Are you happy?
could be

Are you wearing make up?
a little

Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
never have them

This time last year, do you remember who you were dating?
matt maybe..

Last thing you did before bed last night?
watch skins

What color is your underwear?
purple and white stripey

Whats the lamest song you actually like?
my heart will go on

Do you lie to your parents?
far too much

What’s the first thing you think of when you hear the word caterpillars?
no idea

When did you last take a picture of yourself?
today

How many keys are on your keychain?
2

What is the most random object on your desk?
my onesie

When someone says “we need to talk” what runs through your mind?
SHIT WHY WHAT'D I DO OMG

In the past week have you felt stupid?
ofc

Has anyone told you lately that they would always be there for you?
phil

When is the last time you had a massage?
ages

What was the last movie you watched?
start of blades of glory

What are your plans for the weekend?
cruising!

What is one thing you have learned about life recently?
EVERYBODY SUCKS

What is your brothers name?
don't have one

Are you ticklish?
not really no

Are you appearing offline on anything?
no.

Is love a strong word, to you?
yes

Have you ever said “I Love You” and not meant it?
um, i think once

Has anyone ever tried to take your place?
yep

Do you wish you were blonde?
sometimes


Is there any one you can talk to about anything?
yesss

Does anyone call you babe or baby?
fuck no

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
nopeee

What does your hair look like right now?
a bit needs a clean

Have you ever had pink eye?
hahahaahah no

When you last got dressed, did you put on your bottoms or your top first ?
i just changed pants

Is there something about yourself you’re not proud of?
yes of course

Do you have a lot of books in your room?
yessss

When is the next time you’ll kiss someone?
no ideaa

Did you have any interesting conversations lately?
always

Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
i really don't know

If you could move right now would you?
yes

What do you currently hear?
paramore

Where will you be in an hour?
right here, sleeping probably

Does it frustrate you when someone brings up a bad past?
i guess?

What are you looking forward to next month?
BEA ♥

Do you think you’ll make a good husband/wife?
nah hahaha.

Do you believe in love?
yeh D:

my hands are frozen

fail anna.
i had 111 posts so i didn't want to add another lol

intense.
i love you?

life is precious

cherish it people.
because life is short.
god can it be short.

:(

up2

i don't want to talk about it.

wandering eye

am eating the best corn chips withc heese and corn
YUM

i hope alice gets better
i love you alice.
one more day of term1 left.
then only 6 months of high school left.
EVER

what did you sayyyy.

bugger things just don't wanna go right for me.
don't shit talk about me behind my back to people that obviously like me more than you.. because there are so many people that are gunna hear..and tell me straight away
especially when i thought you'd never do that. and you most probably shouldn't do that ae since you're not meant to.
but i don't care.
you're getting on my nerves anyway.

just don't
of all people you've seen me get shit talked for the last month so you should know how much that upset me.
and yet you're just gunna follow in their shoes
COOOOOOLLL!!!!
loser.

don't care who you are.

where you're from, what you did
as long as you love me.

last night was epic.
well last two nights have been epic.
friday night me and phil just decided to wing it, ended up at the port hills looking over christchurch all lit up at 1am.
such a surreal beautiful speechless moment. you feel so insignificant but important at the same time. that there are all these other people around you that feel pain and you're not alone.

last night i went to anne frank which was boringggg
then i went out cruising with grace and aimee first, then ditched them for blair because they were going to a party in sethton that i didn't wanna go to. then me and blair talked for like 2 hoursss then kept lapping then got phil, kept lapping. got to about 4am we were like the only people out and we were noticed the car next to us was rory! as in rory sikslt! we were stoked and phil jumped out the car and did a crazy dance to make rory pull over haha, but now we got rorys contact details so we can catch up with him again. because he is such a gb.
then just hung out with fishy today (phil)
i'm so glad i didn't lose him
all this shit went down and he was there and is still there for me.
its nice to know he's got my back
and we spend so much time together and i never ever get sick of him because we're so alike. and man, he's so so so special to me.
people won't ever understand.
but fishy is my fishy forever.
my lucky fin.
FF fishys forever.
i hope we have many epic weekends ahead of us, for a long time.
it feels like it's been years but its only been months.
but in a good you make me feel so comfortable way.
:)

it messed me up

i wonder who'd care
wonder if anybody would even miss me after a week.
my relevance is sinking.

i promise when you start to sag.

people need to stop bitching and lying about me.
i never realised i was badass enough to believe that i would literally threaten to stab somebody.
for no apparent reason.
and i deliberately go out of my way to ruin peoples friendship and relationships.
i just don't get it
i've made some fucking BAD BAD mistakes but i didn't deserve to be totally trashtalked by people i was stupid enough to believe cared about me.

so fucking over all this bullshit

FUCK YOU ALL.

being nice gets you nowhere.
it appears to me that all the people that are horrible and nasty get further in life and end up getting what they want more often than those who try to factor in others feelings and try to treat people fairly.

how come bullshiters and liars and people that treat others like shit seem to win.
why can't the people that get hurt win, why can't anybody see the pain that some go through to get to where they are today.

now i'm told that this is life, and pain is just a simple compromise so we can get what we want out of it. would someone care to classify, of broken hearts and twisted minds so I can find someone to rely on

life is hard.

make it easier somebody?
people are allergic to loving me and treating me right.

empty

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will

cold case love

just got grounded, ten days before my birthday

why the face.
i'm so close to moving out, fuck my parents

dude omg.

cruising last night was epiccccccccc, went 75 past a cop and he didn't even care.
skids were alright.

PEOPLE FOUND OUT OMG AND SHIT IS HITTING THE FAN!!!
but me and fishy are chilling.
wooohoooooo.
chill. out. people.

i love taurie <3

nicoles song for chris brown COPYRIGHTED

I just want all the girls to hear this, it comes straight from the heart

Who that you texting?
Some guy you sexing?
Ooh girl you should know better than that.

Just gonna warn you,
I’m in a bad mood,
And I can’t be blamed for what happens next.

Imma give you the beat down,
I’m gonna show you how,
You aint ever gonna lie to me again.
It’s cause I love you,
And you were untrue,
So now I give the beat down.

You’re on my floor now,
Blood’s dripping out your mouth.
I hope you realised that you aint getting out

Now where does this guy live?
I’m gonna show who he’s messing with,
Make sure no other man ever touches you.

Imma give you the beat down,
I’m gonna show you how,
You aint ever gonna lie to me again.
It’s cause I love you,
And you were untrue,
So now I give the beat down.

The beat down, the, the beat down.
It’s to show you that I love you babe.
The beat down, the, the beat down.
Never leave me or I’ll hunt you out.

Why you sad these days?
This better be a phase.
I don’t want this going on for much long.

You don’t ever talk,
It’s a bit of a shock.
You aint been the same since the beat down

Imma give you the beat down,
I’m gonna show you how,
You aint ever gonna lie to me again.
It’s cause I love you,
And you were untrue,
So now I give the beat down

I never see you smile,
Baby it’s been a while,
Please won’t you hurry up and come around.

You want to leave me,
But why can’t you see,
That I’m never going to let you out.

IMMA GIVE YOU THE BEAT DOWN

COPYRIGHTED 2010 COPYRIGHTED

nicoles song for chris brown

I just want all the girls to hear this, it comes straight from the heart

Who that you texting?
Some guy you sexing?
Ooh girl you should know better than that.

Just gonna warn you,
I’m in a bad mood,
And I can’t be blamed for what happens next.

Imma give you the beat down,
I’m gonna show you how,
You aint ever gonna lie to me again.
It’s cause I love you,
And you were untrue,
So now I give the beat down.

You’re on my floor now,
Blood’s dripping out your mouth.
I hope you realised that you aint getting out

Now where does this guy live?
I’m gonna show who he’s messing with,
Make sure no other man ever touches you.

Imma give you the beat down,
I’m gonna show you how,
You aint ever gonna lie to me again.
It’s cause I love you,
And you were untrue,
So now I give the beat down.

The beat down, the, the beat down.
It’s to show you that I love you babe.
The beat down, the, the beat down.
Never leave me or I’ll hunt you out.

Why you sad these days?
This better be a phase.
I don’t want this going on for much long.

You don’t ever talk,
It’s a bit of a shock.
You aint been the same since the beat down

Imma give you the beat down,
I’m gonna show you how,
You aint ever gonna lie to me again.
It’s cause I love you,
And you were untrue,
So now I give the beat down

I never see you smile,
Baby it’s been a while,
Please won’t you hurry up and come around.

You want to leave me,
But why can’t you see,
That I’m never going to let you out.

IMMA GIVE YOU THE BEAT DOWN

come here rude boy.

peer support camp = not keen

2 people are particularly being annoying.
and i want them both to leave me alone.
no i will not have sex with you, and no i don't love you or want to even see your face, ever.
kthhxbi

noose around my neck

pulling tighter and tighter.
i know it's wrong so why do i keep doing it and keep wanting it.
damn life being so complicated.

i don't need no parachute if i got you.

good night (:
peer support camp next wednesday, sorta excite.

school soon, sad face.

it's fun protection.

man. confused.
but taking as it as it comes, taking it as it comes...

i want a swallow tattoo because it means freedom, love and loyalty. and doing two swallows like in the picture means one chapter of your life is ending and another one is beginning, which is exactly how i'm feeling atm. my life is beginning atm.. and it's a new chapter for me!
i'd get it on my hip
god i'm keen
and i want an industrial.

putting back together my heart

i love taurie

because she's always there for me, tells me things straight and doesn't judge me.
she is the only friend i have ever had that understands i am only human and am going to fuck up and make horrible mistakes. i always get excited when i see she's online because she brightens my day. and she helps me so much no matter how far away she is. i can feel her with me always.
i'm so happy she was the one friend i got back in touch with, and she was my first friend.
that's so special. and i don't know what i'd do without her.
that's what true friends are, no matter the distance the closeness doesn't fade
love you taurz!

begging for forgiveness at my feet

so now you're both fighting for a reason i can't seem to comprehend but it seems to be loosely related to me.
i feel like i'm lying to everybody when i'm telling no lies.
sick of secrets and hiding.
i want things to be out in the open, but then at the same time i don't.

i don't know why i feel this way about you, i wish i didn't but at the same time i lap it up.
the drama and the whirlwind of never knowing what's going to be happening next because you're so up and down.
it's probably not good for my mental health but then again when is anything i do ever good for me at all. i'm slowly beginning to unravel but then ravelling back up at the same time if that makes any sense at allll!
i'm still hopeful for 2010.